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I've spent nearly my entire life with people not giving a damn about my opinions.

Throughout the past 10 years though i've noticed that a lot of people are starting to take cruelty as the easy way out and using various points of their life as a way out of that argument.

i've noticed that when people are in the wrong about how to treat someone they take the side of the oppressor rather than the one who is being bullied.

and yet there are cases where people question why they're willing to be cruel towards others.

as artist, we low-key base Heroes or villians on people we've met. either by a personality trait that they may share or events on what had happened or flat out base their image and feelings of that person and put it into the character. That being said, i can only imagine how many characters have been made based on me with assumptions that have been made about me over the years without being asked.

However, in recent years i've stayed away from topics such as Religion, Politics and of course the one thing everyone gets into a fight over, Comic Book movies.

Religion: i was Raised LDS, most people know this. i've been a member since as long as i can remember and not once did i give it a second thought by the time i turned 15. within that, there was no question about what i wanted. did i go to church regularly after i graduated from Jr High? No. in fact it wasn't on my list of priorities. I wanted to stay home and play video games because i was being bullied. in fact, i found comfort in writing comics, writing characters and playing video games based solely on the thought that every time i went to church i was my (Now) brother in law friend or my Sisters brother. i was never an individual and honestly, everyone thought i didn't have a father. my whole life in the church was, to my mom, undermining my fathers wishes because i was the only male within the church in the household therefore my decisions of what happened within the church, who the head of the household was and who made the final decisions was based on me. however, my dad wasn't having any of that which is why my father steeped further and further when it came to associating with the church. however, he helps my sister with her family history even going as far as to help her find LDS ancestors.

However, the saddest part is, whenever i mentioned my father at church it would be met with criticism. mostly of how "Wrong He was" or how he was "Trying to stray me away from that path". however, my friends who actually know about him right to beyond any of that know him as a decent man.

Mentioning how i would rather take a "not interested" as an answer from my Non-Mormon friends was often met with "Leave them in the dust". or how being told "That's satan talking" when i bring up my grandfather.

However, my path away from the church didn't come from any of that. truth is i never felt like i belonged. i did try. however there were very few people at chruch in general who were willing to try to get to know me right down to my personal life such as dating or my work life. but in general i never felt like i belonged and the lover of my life at the time made me realize that i deserved better.

But i never held a grudge. looking back had i left the area and gone to a coffee shop i would have been happier, or even if people were serious about mental health at the time. cause honestly, i did need a friend or two. to try to pull me out of the funk that i was in. which did happen.

Now i'm not insulting them. on the Contrary, i'm defending them. do i agree with some of their practices? Preaching agency but telling people to bring their friends. The Constant need to put on a show whenever it comes down to a cute girl. deciding whos worth it based solely on good looks are where their parent is in the church. no. but i do appreciate the good work they do for their community and in the era of Mental Health Practices and Advocacy i can actually say "Took long enough."

Politics: The First election i voted in was the Bush vs. Kerry Election. i registered as a Republican cause i was a kid who wanted the war to end and wanted every terrorist captured. however i may have harbored some Ill-will towards Kerry (being Mormon) and my Grudge towards the church for pretty much telling my Now brother in law that we couldn't see him before his mission. i also thought that Kerry would force the nation to get taught by missionaries, not knowing then that it would be illegal to do so. as the years went on my views slowly started to become realized for me. i believed in Gay Marriage even though i'm straight, i hate the rich and think they should live in a trailor at least once on a budget of 200 a week for a year. i believe that religion should stay the hell out of peoples lives when it comes down to a decision. Now, i still believe in all that. i believe in equal rights for everyone, Gay Rights, Womens Rights, Gun Rights. Marriage equality, Gender Equality.

But i stay the hell away from that because peoples will now judge you based on who you associate with. You could have a friend who's a Republican and you could be a democrat and you'd get crap from both sides.

And yet, i need to wonder why it is that i can hang out with my republican friends, have a beer with them, catch up on life and not bring up politics at least once and go about the rest of my night in a good mood, and yet, there's my democrat friends who would pretty much hold a gun to my head and tell me to chose their beliefs.

i have my views of various jobs as well as those on religion. and while i can say i'm pretty much back to taking the Red side when it comes down to politics, i'm still believing what i do.

Comic Book Movies: This takes the form of even movie franchises i watched when i was a kid. for the record, i don't hate Female Based Movies...when they're done well. for example i loved the Wonder Woman Movie, not just because Wonder Woman helped me with creating my female characters but also the marketing for said movie was on point. it didn't just focus on the story but it helped develop the characters and Steve Trevors character was RIGHT on point. having a private screening for girls and young women of course came off as sexist, however that movie being the first official Wonder Woman Product since Lynda Carter made more sense. Comparing the Captain Marvel Movie and Brie Larson pretty much made me go from wanting to see the movie to not really caring. plus looking up various videos about the Captain Marvel character only made me despise the character even more based on the knowledge that she started another war based on her wanting to be right. however, the Superhero Movie can't seem to be a Movie without the Female character either being better than the main character. in fact i think the only show i watched with a female lead would have to be Hawkeye since the character of Kate Bishop was not only relateable but also helpful towards him. comparing this to Movies such as the Star Wars Sequels being "I'm right and there's nothing you can say about it even if i'm in the wrong." or Marvels "i get catcalled every day so fuck you and your abusive father".

But i can decide what i want to watch for myself. like i don't hate Harley Quinn as a Character, quite the opposite. i just hate that she's in everything now and feeling a little burnt out by it. i refused to watch the Joker Movie even though people have told me how great it is (okay, that's you, but i don't want to take pity or sympathy for that character.)

In fact now i watch any movie these days i need to question how long its going to be before i turn it off because the show wants to make me think that because i have something between my legs i'm automatically the villain or i'm stupid. as if i'm not getting that on a regular basis anyways now i need to get it from something that's supposed to bring me comfort. they insult my sexuality, race and gender while still wanting me to watch because they want the views other wise i'm exactly what they say that i am.

Basically, Jist of all this, i don't care what your religion is, don't force it on me. don't force me to change my opinions because you're offended. don't tell me to cast my friends aside because they offend you since all that is going to do is cause me to choose them. i'll be on your side until you give me a reason not to, and i'll respect you so long as i get the same amount. cause i'm not going to give respect to a person simply because they want to feel important and yet treat me like i'm scum and question why i don't wish them well.

for my own mental health, i've decided to delete the apps on my phone that i can view differently how others do.

i've already deleted instagram on my phone as well as this app also.

for the last few years i've felt like nothing more to people than just a fan and often made to feel shown up.

i joined this site in the beginning to not only post what work i had done, but to speak fans as well as make friends.

but with how things have been for me for the past 6 years or so, i've decided to deal with my depression the only way i can. but it hasn't been enough. so i decided to delete the apps on my phone with the exception of Facebook and Snapchat.

however, i will be checking in every so often to check things out and to check messages (if any), Comments (if any), or anything else.

again, this is for the best, for me. i can't keep checking apps for messages or comments in regards to anything big. i can understand life is complicated and adults are busy.

take care all, and see you the next update.

The Twist is...I'm not depressed when i write it :D

seriously though. i'm good here. nothing bad to update things are going well. with the Covid-19 pandemic going on i've been able to appreciate things that come into my life without having the pissing contest with people.

but here's my update.

to those of you who are in the know, no i do not post my artworks on here anymore, nor do i post stories in regards to what i have in my head ever since that one time a few years ago and dA wouln't do anything about it cause they 'Saw no problem with the comment.' nor could they delete the comment.

another reason why is this. some groups on here add my character designs (though based on the original, given my unique touch and based on people i know.) without my permission or asking it first.

so everything i work on i post onto my personal facebook page. everything from the series i work on, to script ideas to even just ramblings that i look forward to. with it. comes the idea that no one takes it witout my permission, comments can be removed as well as turned off, and people can be blocked.

With my luck, dA might give us more options to make our pages more....comfortable for us. so i'm not leaving dA just yet.